Though March and April had their ups and downs, June was the month that got me. In chronological order, June was a month of…
…not getting a job that I was told was “guaranteed.”
…a break-up.
…losing my best friend, Oscar.
…losing my half sister, Karen, to a long battle with complications from Lyme Disease.
Along with other, more trivial disappointing events in my life, these are the bigger let-downs, obviously some things more significant than others. It honestly felt like I was being hit with bad news and disappointment every way I turned. It felt like I had no time to recover from anything, and it seemed as though each thing was worse than the thing preceding it. Perhaps most significantly, as I was still grieving the loss of my dog, I found out about my half sister, and I felt like I had the wind knocked out of me. Each and every thing was building up all around me and I felt there was no escape from it all.
When I was in New York this past weekend, I had time to take a step back from the reality of all that has come at me over the past few weeks. On Sunday, for the first time in over a month, I felt like myself. I felt happy. I was able to put everything out of my mind, if only for a few hours. And then it hit me: June was over. In a half-hearted attempt to make myself feel better about everything, I reminded myself that it was July 1st, and thus the first half of this–sometimes very disappointing–year was over; it was a new month and fresh start. I told myself that things could only improve.
July is a mere five days in, and so far, in chronological order, it has been a month of…
…volunteering at a wonderful dog adoption event in NYC (with Adopt NY). And falling in love with one adorable puppy. I knew it would happen but I’m not sure if the timing is right.
…a 105-pound split jerk at CrossFit…a new PR!
…a job offer! Which I accepted! I am now the Marketing Assistant at a nonprofit in the Hartford area. I am really, really excited about this job…it’s just the direction I wanted to take.
…visiting my friend Jason, who I met when I studied abroad in London. My visit included: a trip to the gym (with 7 minutes of burpees, “Annie” in 6:56 [14 seconds faster than a week ago!], and a 200-pound deadlift, which is a 55 pound PR from four weeks ago!); a stop at the Whole Foods salad bar, and an amazingly delicious dinner later on; and Fourth of July fireworks on his friend’s rooftop deck.
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I’m so grateful that everything is turning around. I’m honestly not entirely sure what the point of this post is, but more than anything I think it’s a chance for me to reflect on all that has happened and all the good that is coming my way.
I truly believe that I wouldn’t have these difficulties and challenges thrown in my direction if I couldn’t handle them. In the end, though I’m still struggling with the aforementioned things that happened in June, I am doing better, I am stronger and better for having gone through all of this, and every single day is going to bring more good my way.
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